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Oh, Sergei 💔

Oh, Sergei 💔

Am rewatching the 4 previous seasons of #ForAllMankind before watching 5.

Sergei and Margo's relationship was always like catnip to me, because, well, the yearning, the slow burn, the lack of resolution.

And am now (re)watching Sergei turn away from the safe stable life he's built to go chasing after her, with a giddy smile on his face. And I know what's coming, because this is a rewatch.

Oh Sergei. 💔

I posted this yesterday on Mastodon and Bluesky.

Going back to the end of that episode, when Margo does go to meet him and the conversation they had, and okay, yes, he did not simply go find her because of idealistic or romantic reasons. There was a reason he wrestled with: he knew her to be in danger. She basically fucked her own life up to save his life. He probably did feel, well, after what she did for me, how can I not?

This doesn't take away the reality that he absolutely still has feelings for her. It's very obvious:

The way he smiles when he decides to drive the other way at that fork in the road (a literal fork, not metaphorical) and go try to get in touch with her instead of going on with his normal day and his normal life. The way he smiles when she does come up to him in the parking lot. He cares for her. He has his life and his wife, but the two of them, they have so much in common, if there is such a thing as soulmates, it's more likely to be her than anyone else. He thought she was dead all these years and she's not.

And well, fact is, he didn't have to actually see her. He could have just gone to find Aleida and just as he explained to her the truth about why Margo did what she did, he could have explained why she is in danger, and had Aleida pass it on. It probably would have been much simpler... and safer for him.

If Margo Madison was just someone he used to know, he could and should have just done that.

But she isn't that. She's so much more important to him. And so he didn't just do that.

He had to see her.

ETA (one episode later):

HE WANTED THEM TO RUN AWAY TOGETHER!!!!HE WANTED TO RUN AWAY WITH HER TO BRAZIL!!!!! 😭

(I forgot this little detail)

BRB crying forever 😭😭😭😭😭